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The Sound of Success

posted May 28, 2013, 6:25 AM by Suzette Vearnon   [ updated May 28, 2013, 6:34 AM ]
Good morning!  Dr. Phil says "sometimes you have to behave your way to success."  Truer words were n'er spoken.  A challenge when you're transitioned to something newer, better, or richer is to claim that space.  I don't want to make a feminist statement here as some sister-friends out there may get offended, so I'll use myself.  I won't say women struggle with feelings that threaten their new reality.  I won't say that.  Instead, I'll say that I do.  Sometimes I wake up feeling alive and ready to take on the world.  Other days, like today, it's tough to roll out of bed.  Although I'm 100% working for myself as of April 1, 2013 - best April Fool's Day not-a-joke EVER - I'm not use to it.  There are times when my old mindset interlopes. 
Historically, the times I worked for myself were usually short lived.  When the project, assignment or contract ended, I'd do the normal thing.  Look for a "real job."  Over the years, I started to regard those periods of subcontracting as merely a creative solution to being "between real jobs."  My side hustle.  Now, what was "between" is the real job. 
There are days I'm hormonal.  My emotions are all over the place.  Not an excuse, a fact.  Matter of fact, I've had a resurgence of night sweats and hot flashes even with wearing the Vivelle dot patch.  Yuck!  They're not as intrusive as before, but something to deal with nonetheless.  Unlike the hot flashes that make you want to jump in a tub of ice cold water, mine are more of a feverish feeling that comes over me and leaves a film of oily, clammy and just plain ole icky.  I tend to be more clumsy during this time.  The past couple of days have been a struggle.  Today, I awakened feeling drained and clammy.  First thought that greeted me, "I hate to go to work today!" 
Working for myself is God's answer to my prayer for fulfillment.  Every day, I am so grateful!  I've only known this kind of fulfillment once - as a mother.  I know I am exactly where I am suppose to be.  So why do I still have thoughts as if I'm still an employee?  Simple.  My brain hasn't caught up yet.  "I hate getting up to go to work!," has to be reminded that those days are over. 
No I don't rebuke the devil.  It's not  I simply have to remind my brain of what is.  "I will spend time with my client, render agreed upon services, and come home."  That's it.  I'm no longer having to go to work.  In fact, the way the contract is written, my company can hire someone else to do the bookkeeping whenever I choose to. 
So this is my Sound of Success takeaway.  It's easy to forget that we're in a new place after a bad night sleep or a "day off" or a night sweat.  That's when we have to be most assertive with ourselves of what is lest we adopt a drudgery that doesn't belong in our now.  I am no longer an employee.  I am an independent contractor doing business my way.  I call the shots for my own life.  For me, that is absolute freedom!  This is how I keep my joy and enthusiasm.  Successful people tell themselves the truth about who they are and where they are.          
I'm free!  Yay!